wasted? no, just impatient.

having a college diploma and three medals on you neck doesn’t assure a good and an prioritized application.

its been three months after graduation. a month passed after the board exam, and here i am, waiting. and waiting. and waiting for that job interview. i’ve been sending job applications even before graduation. i was that eager to work fast and real big time after graduation. im the type A as they say. fast phased, gives it all at work, gives up her life for that adrenaline rush to flow.

and its quite frustrating for me to wake up each day with an empty to do list, an empty organizer, an empty calendar and an empty wasted life. type A pal has been deteriorated to type F class.

wasted? nope, just impatient. impatient to have that life back. but i guess the biological crisis on my cycle demands a stop. idle. and a good vacation. the college of nursing has slaved me for four long years. with no summer breaks, toxic environment, an academic status to be maintained, a publication to be ran, and a board exam to be prepared of.  i couldn’t even remember when was the last time i went to the beach and enjoy the sun.  but the naturalistic element of it? i enjoyed that life.

ironically, i really did enjoy college in contrast to those who have said i didn’t (because i did work a lot, that my family couldn’t even have a decent talk with me.) the routine was always 4am to 6pm at school, quick dinner, then trapped alone in my space to study and etc. i didn’t have a social life. well, maybe the student government and publication was my social life and this blog site. but that was the kind of life i wanted.

taking a break from that fast lane was lame, but now i’m learning to accept it, and enjoy it as wise. with Plurk on your side, who will be bored? im now filling up that to do list with the movies that i want to watch. marking up the calendar for the HBO movie schedule. marking up my organizer with my time line.  being bum is fun after all. it satisfies the deprivation i had. and i think that is good, for me to have a well developed human chronicle.

wasted? nope, just impatient. i have planned my life 5 years in advance, but i guess the Creator has more good plans for me. i won’t intrude, i’ll just follow. as i always believe in, everything happens for a reason, just wait for that reason and then learn from it.

wasted? nope, just impatient. for sure i’ll have that life soon, and for sure, im gonna miss Plurk.